Thanx, Jim. 

For me, "wrenching" is entertainment (and therapy).

And I keep remembering that I don't have the burdens of someone else's life hanging on my neck -- which feels really weird after 20 years of that kind of worry.

(and geeez, Su -- it's just a small hematoma that split on one side.  Not the remains of a Tibetan Sky Burial )

Jak:

I don't think so. I don't want to.

I know, Jak.

Reminds me of something my dad told me 9+ years ago -- when I'd driven to South Carolina to see my folks -- and on to Atlanta to scope out "treatment" for this thing that was stuck in my head.  It was the last time I saw my dad alive.

His quote:  "You don't want this thing."

He was right -- I didn't want it.  No one does. 

But you know as well as I do -- particularly from your recent line of work -- that our "wants" in life are pretty irrelevant to what we get in life ... and how we play the cards we're dealt.

The only thing that's worth "believing" is that you will come to terms with it.  Not right away -- maybe not for months -- maybe a year or so.  But you will.

This particular forum is mostly old hands -- people who are long past the claim of "suffering" ... and are living productive, healthy lives, just like everyone else -- "t" or no "t"

We've all been there, and all you need to remember is if we can do it, so can you.

Stay in the present -- give it some time -- and quit sweating the future. 

But don't forget to look forward to Costa Rica.




Nice little hackle farm you've got there. Be a shame if anything happened to it.
~Reph